bitch.

Man... where do I even start....

So this morning, my wake up call is my step-mother. Telling me horrible things.
My dad is apparently suicidal. She says he tried to kill himself 3 times in the past week.
So, I start to freak out.
THEN
she throws at that, even though he won't talk to anyone about what's going on with him, she's CONVINCED that he's only suicidal because of mine and Jon's wedding.
I say WTF WHY would that depress him??
she says she doesn't know.
I thank her for calling, we get off the phone, I am freaked out and worried all day.

FF to tonight.
I came up from the hotel pool early because I started crying thinking about my dad... I told my mom I wanted to go home so I could be by him, blah blah blah.

this BITCH that used to be his foster mom (my dads) calls me when I get upstairs.

She says "you know your dads in the hospital"
I say, uhhh no??? Step-monster never told me that.
She says he's on 24-hour watch because of the suicide attempt.

THEN

she starts in on me about my wedding. She says it's all MY fault that my dad is suicidal, because I'm not having him walk me down the aisle.
....

back story: MY DAD SUCKS! He was abusive, and never gave 2 sh-ts about me or my brother.
The MAN who will be walking me down the aisle is my brother. The only man who has and always will be there for me.
And step-monster just assumes my dad is only suicidal over this.

OH, and apparently, they say that Jenn told them that my dad wasn't invited to the wedding???
Jenn talked to her once, and all she said was to lay off me because it was my choice about who walked me down the aisle.

this is all ridiculous.



BUT
it's ok

I called the hospital where my dad is at. I talked to the nurses on his floor, gave them my name and number and told them to please please call me if something happens. I mentioned my step-mom and I don't talk, and she said she would for sure keep me up to date.
Then I talked to my dad.
He sounded ok, he laughed and stuff when I told him to be a good boy so he could get out soon.

Blah.
yeah
the people in my life are so dramatic.

Lookie here, a post

Hello world
of people who don't read this
(Hi Jon!)

So I'm slowly going insane.... work is killing me. 11 days in a row, AT LEAST a 9 hour shift, usually an 11 hour shift though. All alone. Unless a customer happens through those doors, I have no one to talk to for 11 fucking hours.

It's alright. End of July I put in my 2 weeks. They won't let me work part time here, and I don't have a set enough schedule to try and schedule my classes around........ and they are basically refusing to work around my school schedule.

According to my countdown on here, it's 1 month and 24 days until the wedding.
I really should get those dang invites out.
That kinda depresses me, though, because that means Summer is that much closer to being over already. I don't want more snow yet. :-(

Also, in 27 days we get to go and save my brother from basic training.
and by save I mean he'll be graduated! So proud of him!

uhhhh
yeah
bye

I like cheese

and bacon






















thats all.

I got a letter from my little brother!!!

So, my little brother has joined the national guard.
He's currently at basic training.
The little bastard took his sweet time sending me a letter, but he finally did!!!



I cried when I read it.
He's talking about what he's done so far. It all sounds so tough! I'm so proud of him!!

ahhh, I'm happy now. :)

Chris rock has an annoying voice.

I kinda wanna shake him.
and say STFU!

Today was a lazy day. Worked from 10-7.
Sold lotsa phones, made lotsa money.

I want to paint my toe nails. real badly.
I have pink nailpolish somewhere, just gotta find it.

What else.
See how boring I am? I can't even think of anything to blog about.

I'm going to go exercise now.
WOOOH!

I'm so easily amused

stumble = <3


Ahhh, funny.


today was good.
bought shoes for the wedding
they are awesome
I am tired
good night, non-readers.

Boring Blog Part 1

Good day blogspot.com Or, should I say good night...? No. No I shouldn't. anyway. This is the first entry, where I suppose I should like, write stuff... about me. That's assuming people will read this. but since they won't. I won't.

I realized today my wedding is in 111 days. I really need to step up the excersize. Much more. And I need to stop eating such crappy food.
I'm really bad at this "weight loss" thing. :P
I also need to work on invitations, and decide how I want my hair to be, and pick out shoes, and OMG!

and programs, and gifts, and favors, and decorations.
Oh dear.

Should be fun, though. I swear.

Since I've recently deleted all my entries from another blog, I'm going to repost important things here.

These are options I'm looking at for my hair







I can't decide if up or half up is better
probably half up

and, yeah, I think that's it.
More wedding stuff to come, I'm sure. Since it's all I think about.