bitch.

Man... where do I even start....

So this morning, my wake up call is my step-mother. Telling me horrible things.
My dad is apparently suicidal. She says he tried to kill himself 3 times in the past week.
So, I start to freak out.
THEN
she throws at that, even though he won't talk to anyone about what's going on with him, she's CONVINCED that he's only suicidal because of mine and Jon's wedding.
I say WTF WHY would that depress him??
she says she doesn't know.
I thank her for calling, we get off the phone, I am freaked out and worried all day.

FF to tonight.
I came up from the hotel pool early because I started crying thinking about my dad... I told my mom I wanted to go home so I could be by him, blah blah blah.

this BITCH that used to be his foster mom (my dads) calls me when I get upstairs.

She says "you know your dads in the hospital"
I say, uhhh no??? Step-monster never told me that.
She says he's on 24-hour watch because of the suicide attempt.

THEN

she starts in on me about my wedding. She says it's all MY fault that my dad is suicidal, because I'm not having him walk me down the aisle.
....

back story: MY DAD SUCKS! He was abusive, and never gave 2 sh-ts about me or my brother.
The MAN who will be walking me down the aisle is my brother. The only man who has and always will be there for me.
And step-monster just assumes my dad is only suicidal over this.

OH, and apparently, they say that Jenn told them that my dad wasn't invited to the wedding???
Jenn talked to her once, and all she said was to lay off me because it was my choice about who walked me down the aisle.

this is all ridiculous.



BUT
it's ok

I called the hospital where my dad is at. I talked to the nurses on his floor, gave them my name and number and told them to please please call me if something happens. I mentioned my step-mom and I don't talk, and she said she would for sure keep me up to date.
Then I talked to my dad.
He sounded ok, he laughed and stuff when I told him to be a good boy so he could get out soon.

Blah.
yeah
the people in my life are so dramatic.